Fun dream last night. As usual, no names, just initials, because it's not the real them. It's not a big stretch to figure out who everyone is, anyway.
AC was having his 21st at a really expensive restaurant all the way out in Canberra, so a bunch of us were trying to figure out transport. I was walking by the Wentworth lawns with MT and talking to her about whether she was taking the train or driving. It was an overnight trip, so I was telling her I could take the train, but I'd prefer to drive because it'd probably end late and I didn't want to have to leave early.
"AC is staying the night with his [high-school] friends. I could ask if I could stay with them. That would be handy - no rush, and no need to be sleepy on the drive home or anything. I mean, I have relatives in Canberra, but I don't know how okay they'd be with me bringing SL and sharing a room, so I'd rather not."
JY was suddenly there too, and she frowned, "Well, why don't you ask AC if you can stay with them?"
"Yeah," I started, hesitantly, "but I don't want to crash their slumber party. They didn't invite me. I don't even know if they like me."
"Sweetie, who cares if they like you or not? All you need is a space on the floor to sleep. Just ask him," JY shrugged, as though I was being dumb about the whole thing. "It's AC. Who cares if he says no?"
"Yeah," I nodded, more to myself than anything else. JY is full of wisdom, as always. "Yeah, okay."
Don't remember if I actually ended up asking AC if I could crash with them or not. MT was taking the train, and I really liked the idea of taking it with her (roadtrips are fun but long train-rides with friends are fun too!), so I ended up deciding I'd just leave whenever she left and take the train back to Central with her.
It was an old country train, with the khaki-green comfy seats and everything. We sat facing each other, catching up as we watched the scenery. It was so lovely. I'd missed her (I miss her) so much. The three hours went by so quickly, I was almost sad we arrived.
It was night by the time we got there. Somehow we were in our fancy dresses already (good dream editing there, subconscious, skipping all the boring parts). We were in Canberra, but the party was in a room that looked just like Potts Hall from my old high-school.
AC was in a suit with a white bow-tie, white scarf and a top-hat, like The Doctor in the end of season five (totally only noticed that now, oops). He hugged me, then MT, and they were talking. I wandered off because I was looking for someone else but I couldn't for the life of me remember who it was.
The longer the night went on, the more frustrated I got. My heart was set to vibrate. I was starting to sweat and feel dizzy. My stomach hurt so badly, I stumbled off to the bathroom and just kind of sat there with my hands on my stomach, cringing through the pain.
By the time I came back outside, there was music playing, the lights had dimmed and there were pink, green and yellow lights everywhere. It was really cool, and I could see why AC dragged us all the way out to Canberra for it. It was kind of like prom night meets Amy/Rory's wedding after-party.
Ugh, and this is where it gets super cheesy, but it is totally not my fault (except it totally is).
I kind of continued my wander through the crowd, except after that, I think I knew who I was looking for. I must have because for some reason I knew they were in the room. I saw SL talking to a couple of people but he spotted me straight away and he visibly brightened.
I thought, "Oh, hey, it was you I was looking for that whole time. I don't know how I forgot that. Stupid of me."
Just like that, my heart slowed, my skin cooled and the knots in my stomach untangled. I dodged the people in the crowd, probably less careful than was polite, a little more harried than dignified, but for some reason it was incredibly important that I hug SL immediately, so I did, and I was so happy I started shaking and crying and he was laughing at me for being so ridiculous but I was honestly that happy that I couldn't stop. I kept mumbling apologies for getting his suit wet but he just wiped my face dry and looked down at me and smiled. We pressed our foreheads together and laughed at how sappy we were being.
JY came up to us (she was in a cream, short dress with a black collar and it was adorable
), and she must have totally missed our dramatic reunion because she had a cocktail in one hand and when SL and I pulled apart, she just threw her arm around my shoulder and said, "Hey! I was wondering where you guys were! Seriously, SK, you have to try one of these. I don't know what's in them but they're good." I think she may have been slightly tipsy already because she had her obnoxious drunk voice on. I glanced over to where AC and MT were dancing with a few other people. SL tangled our hands and pressed his shoulder to mine, the way I always do to him but never expect him to in return.
I just smiled.
I don't know. It was a really great night - even if it didn't actually happen, it's kind of like Total Recall; the memory felt real enough that I can pretend it did. I had so much fun in that dream. I miss having everyone together, and I'm missing everyone constantly.
is going away for a bit for leisure and for business. I haven't hung out with @Fallenmirage23
in ages. It's been an unbelievably long time since I've seen !manuela
. And yeah, it's absolutely ridiculous how much I miss @siddlaha
But I think it's really nice, having people in your life that you love so much that you miss them when you're not with them. I don't have a lot of friends, but the ones I'm lucky enough to have in my life - even the ones I can not see for ages? I do miss them when they're not around. And when they are around, it feels like all the pieces are in place and everything is as it's supposed to be.
I'd apologise for this being so sappy but I don't care. Let me wallow in my marshmallow friends and how sweet they make my veins. I've had my share of Cornflake friends and now that I've got Lucky Charms with motherfucking marshmallows, YOU ARE NOT TAKING THAT AWAY FROM ME.